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Its been a while

So. I took three weeks off blogging altogether. Those three weeks have been a little bit busy but thats not why I haven’t blogged. Back up three weeks and we are at the start of the school term. I joined up with Phoenix Trading during the break and then sat down and looked at all the things I’ve committed to doing. It was a lot. Too much really at this time of year. Including selling the greeting cards with Phoenix I had my two Etsy shops (Polyclarific and KeLu), theres this blog and my other blog (Creativity Every Day).
I’d also planned on making my Christmas trees to sell again this year and I was in charge of organising an International Food Night at our church. I also had my Phoenix Trading launch coming up.

Bit much really.

I did come up with a plan on how to do all of it, some things just needed maintaining, others needs priority work but I decided in the end, for my own sanity I should let a few things slide. The International Food night was priority number one seeing as that event was only a few weeks away at the time and it had been advertised in the paper. Once I was satisfied that I was ready for that I focused on my Phoenix Trading launch (or should I say, simultaneously).

In the meantime I decided that I was pushing Creativity Every Day (my other blog) uphill. Without a lot of help coming in from other bloggers in promoting it despite promoting a lot of other people’s work each week (with my colour of the week posts I always linked to four Aussie hand-made sellers) and being unable to afford proper advertising I decided to see what would happen if I put it into hiatus for a week (after just three months of blogging). Nothing happened. No one noticed. The blogosphere is a big place and unless you are able to implement all the tips out there about how to draw in readers then expectations should be low. With everything else on my plate there was no way I could properly devote time to drawing in readers. I also do not fully understand how to apply a lot of the suggestions on doing so.

So. Both blogs stopped, I decided NOT to do my trees and KeLu and Polyclarific are just sitting there. I decided I would return to this blog when I felt like it (which obviously is now) and not put pressure on myself to ALWAYS include photos. I love to take them but its hard work to get them to the point that I want to put them on here. I have to focus on being an Independent Phoenix Trader now because that was a financial commitment (which funnily enough came from a few unexpected Polyclarific sales!).

Here I stand three weeks later and I am choosing to keep this blog and Phoenix Trading while I let my shops go a bit quiet for now. I’ll probably still renew and still promote the stock thats in them but might not add anything for a little bit.

In just four weeks time I get a wonderful birthday present, I get to go to Cairns and spend time with my family after a very long difficult year. Today marks one year since my hubby resigned from the last church so we are both deep in thought today. So much happening and so much on our plates right now. I think shedding a few things will help us cope better.

Five Books that changed who I am …

My friend Janet, the creator and editor of Footprints Magazine for women recently tagged me to share about the five books that changed me. To be honest I would consider myself only an average reader. I do like reading but find it difficult to read books other than novels and biographies. You will see this on the list I’ve chosen below. Like Janet I grew up reading Enid Blyton books and like Janet I too loved The Faraway Tree series of books but I wouldn’t say that these books changed me. I had friends when I was in high school that would devour books, especially Christian novels and to be honest, I couldn’t stand those books. I wanted real stories, not romantic Christian novels and so you will see that from my teenage years thats where my reading took me for the most part. Even though I can’t say I’m a big reader I didn’t find it hard to find five (actually six) books that have had a huge influence on my life. I haven’t included the Bible in this list (which is technically 66 books anyway) because thats a given.

So, here they are (in order of when they influenced me).

1. Pilgrim’s Progress by John Bunyan. This book is an allegory of the Christian life and it captured me when I was very young. My parents were co-founders of Challenge Newspaper when I was only 5 years old and it was the man who started the paper, Eric Evans who gave me my first copy of Pilgrim’s Progress. I kept that copy for a long time before lending it out and never received it back.

From Wikipedia: ‘The Pilgrim’s Progress… is a Christian allegory written by John Bunyan and published in February, 1678. It is regarded as one of the most significant works of religious English literature, has been translated into more than 200 languages, and has never been out of print. Bunyan began his work while in the Bedfordshire county gaol for violations of the Conventicle Act, which prohibited the holding of religious services outside the auspices of the established Church of England.’

As a child I read this book over and over again. I loved the way that Bunyan’s writing opened up Scripture to me and the true meaning behind the cross. The story is written as an allegory and has all sorts of characters in it including Christian, Hopeful and Worldly Wiseman. It also has interesting places such as the village of Morality, Vanity Fair, the Delectable Mountains, By-Path Meadow and Doubting Castle. There are giants and all sorts of people along the way and those who like stories such as Narnia would recognise this as its forerunner.

2. Joni by Joni Eareckson. I first heard the story of Joni when I was quite young, probably in primary school.

From her own website:‘In 1967 Joni Eareckson Tada was injured in a diving accident at 17 years old, leaving her in a quadriplegic state with minimal use of her hands. After two years of rehabilitation, Joni re-entered the community with new skills and a fresh determination to help others in similar situations.’

Joni is a Christian and has used her disability to reach out and help many people. Her story is amazing, I remember watching the movie they made of her life as a kid many times and was always amazed at her Christian journey in such difficult circumstances. She has a huge ministry now to many people through her Joni and Friends International Disability Centre and has written many books as well as painted many beautiful artworks (as a mouth painter). She also has a gorgeous singing voice and shares regularly on a radio program in the US (available as a podcast). She is ever inspiring!

3. Nicky Cruz, Run Baby Run and David Wilkerson’s The Cross and the Switchblade. These two books go hand in hand as David had a great influence on Nicky. I remember these books, especially Run Baby Run as the first semi-adult books I was allowed to read when I was in high school. I say semi-adult because the story is one of violence, drugs and gangs.

Nicky’s story is best summarised through is own words on his website: ‘When he was 15, Nicky’s father sent him to visit an older brother in New York. Nicky didn’t stay with his brother long. Instead, full of anger and rage, he chose to make it on his own.Tough, but lonely, by age 16 he became a member of the notorious Brooklyn street gang known as the Mau Maus (named after a bloodthirsty African tribe). Within six months he became their president…No authority figure could reach Cruz – until he met a skinny street-preacher named David Wilkerson. He disarmed Nicky – showing him something he’d never known before: Relentless love.’

I remember being amazed at how awful gang life was in New York in the 60s and then at the amazing change in Nicky’s life after he accepted Christ. The Cross and the Switchblade is the story of David Wilkerson’s ministry to street gangs in New York at this time. Sadly David died in a car crash in April.

4. The Autobiography of George Muller. There were very strong missions influences during my high school years that have stuck with me to this day. The story of George Muller is one I would highly recommend reading. George’s amazing faith and reliance on God for all his needs as he ran a huge orphanage in the UK in 1830s is mind blowing.

According to Wikipedia: ‘George Müller (27 September 1805 – 10 March 1898), a Christian evangelist and Director of the Ashley Down orphanage in Bristol, England, cared for 10,024 orphans in his life. He was well-known for providing an education to the children under his care, to the point where he was accused of raising the poor above their natural station in life. He also established 117 schools which offered Christian education to over 120,000 children, many of them being orphans.’

This is why he is inspirational for me:

‘Müller never made requests for financial support, nor did he go into debt, even though the five homes cost over £100,000 to build. Many times, he received unsolicited food donations only hours before they were needed to feed the children, further strengthening his faith in God. For example, on one well-documented occasion, they gave thanks for breakfast when all the children were sitting at the table, even though there was nothing to eat in the house. As they finished praying, the baker knocked on the door with sufficient fresh bread to feed everyone.’

5. Melody Green and David Hazard No Compromise (the story of Keith Green). What can I say about Keith. He sits equally alongside George Muller as a person of great inspiration for me. Keith Green was a Christian singer in the 1970s who started out his adult life involved in the hippie drug scene. This book tells his amazing story and you will not be able to put it down. Keith was a musical genius, playing the piano and writing songs from the age of 4 and to this day we still sing some of his songs in our regular church services. Along with his wife Melody he took in many strangers to the point where they had to buy a ranch to fit them all in, mostly ex-drug addicted homeless people. The devastating part of this story is that on July 28 1982 Keith, along with two of their four children died in a small plane crash. His story continues with Melody going on to write this book and continue their work through Last Day’s Ministries.

From her site: ‘He was only twenty-eight when he died in a plane crash with two of his small children, but singer/songwriter Keith Green had already created a legacy of music and inspiration that would outlive him. A spiritual revolutionary, he found freedom through Jesus at twenty-one and spent the rest of his short life convincing others to refuse to accept the status quo and to bring passion and honesty back to the church.’

6. Max Lucado’s God Came Near. This was the first Max Lucado book that I read and it amazed me immediately. The way that Max writes captures you, he’s a brilliant wordsmith. I went on to read many of his books but this one has always been my favourite. I can recommend reading any of Max’s books and taking a look through the varied online ministry he has by visiting his website.

You can also take a look at Jo (Princess Warrior)’s list of five books here.

Things I Believe (that may make me a bit odd to some)

With all the recent hype about the rapture prediction I got to thinking about how different the things I believe are to many around me. I’m not one of those people who believes in each to our own when it comes to all things spiritual. I firmly believe that there is one way to God and I realise that this probably would be perceived as arrogant or frustrating (or wrong) to a lot of people. The thing is, I also believe that each person has the choice to take this point of view or not. You don’t have to agree with me to be my friend, friends are very important to me.

I know that Christians are often seen as pushy, arrogant know-it-alls and it would be easy for me to fit into that stereotype. I hate stereotypes by the way, they do nothing but unindividualise people. Not one of us really fits perfectly into one group, not when we dig deeper.

Here are some of the things that I firmly believe (they may shock you). Before you read on, know that if you ask me my opinion on these things I will happily share my thoughts but I will never push these onto you and force my opinion. What’s the point of that, God gave us free will for a reason.

1. I DO believe in Heaven and Hell and that God has given us a choice on where we end up.
2. I DO believe that the Bible is God’s Word, that is that its his own words written down for us. I take the Bible literally.
3. I DO NOT believe that we can ever predict the end times, after all God said he would surprise us (Matthew 24:36)
4. I DO believe in the rapture. Yep I’m premillennial.
5. I DO NOT believe in abortion.
6. I DO believe that Jesus was a real person, 100% God and 100% man and that he chose to die in my place so my relationship with God could be restored.
7. I DO NOT believe that becoming a Christian makes you sinless instantly.
8. I DO believe that there is only one way to God and that is very simple.
9. I DO NOT believe that we can do a single thing to earn our way to Heaven.
10. I DO believe in encouraging, loving, caring for and seeing the best in a person because each person is important to God.
11. I DO believe in prayer as our way to talk to God, lay our joys and sadnesses before him and as a way to chat to God. Prayer is not a way of wishing for something.
12. I DO believe in praying for my friends and for hoping that one day they will have a relationship with God.

So, there are some of the hard line things I believe. If you don’t agree with me thats perfectly ok. I have felt strongly that I need to lay it all out for a while. There are some controversial things on that list and I’m not after an argument, just being as honest as I can be about myself. I do not want to present myself as perfect, having it together or as a fence sitter at all. Feel free to add to the list of things you believe below.


Returning to the Beginning

For a while now I’ve not felt myself. As you may have picked up over the last few months I’ve been under a bit of stress. Some of the outcome of this has been mental and some physical and I cannot deny, some of it spiritual. Damage was done, some may be permanent at least in the physical area but I’ve started climbing back up the mountain and dealing with the mental and spiritual damage. Of course I’m not totally there yet, thats going to take a long time and as I trust that God is the great physician I know healing will happen. Forgiveness will happen too and I do think its starting, slowly.

One of the main stresses over these last six months was that my hubby didn’t have a job. It was tough watching him as he struggled with many things but last week the Lord gave him a job that can only be from him. He is now a school Chaplain at my daughter’s school. Its most exciting really as there is no denying that this was completely God directed. As the stress of unemployment was lifted so was that ‘wilderness wandering’ feeling for both of us but I was left with the physical results of the last year. Since he started his new job I’ve found myself to be obsessing even more over symptoms, as if my brain is scrambling to catch up to where my hubby is. Still struggling physically makes me feel as if I’m dragging the stresses with me into this new phase of our lives. I am making distinctive and purposeful moves to resolve these issues.

One of the moves I’m making involves figuring out how to reconnect with my creativity. That was one of the first things to be effected during the period of chronic stress and without it I don’t feel like myself. Sure, I’ve still done a tiny bit but mostly it was mechanical, to distract me and keep my hands busy. My hands were involved but my mind was not.

I did a bit of a search on the net for ideas on creativity inspiration techniques and found two very helpful articles. This is one and this is the other. This morning I made moves to step towards some of these suggestions. The first thing I did was get my whiteboard down off the wall and erase it clean. Then I wrote out many of the tips from the first article and hung it on my wall, next to my art area.


I then scoured the list and chose one area to work on, combining the idea of having a topic and using a mind map (from the second article). I thought about the words that have followed me throughout the last 12 months and started:

Trust was the first word that came to mind. I blogged about how this was the word I returned from our trip over east with earlier this year so it was an easy choice. I have also done one using the word ‘new’, this seemed appropriate to starting fresh and also works in perfectly with the way that the Lord drew me to consider the butterfly while we were away (as mentioned in the same post). Its a start anyway and from it I’m hoping to keep on working until some ideas for artwork come through.

Revelation 21:5
“And the one sitting on the throne said, “Look, I am making everything new!” And then he said to me, “Write this down, for what I tell you is trustworthy and true.”

I set up my art area yesterday too and have a blank canvas sitting there ready for when inspiration strikes and I have also added the two words to my drafting board to remind me of God’s goodness and to inspire me!





The third photo shows my inspirational collection from nature including seeds, feathers and pictures of butterflies.

Keswick Autumn Convention 2011

Last weekend was a time for firsts as well as reminiscing. This was the first time we have camped in as a family (as in since having the girls) at the Keswick convention. Its something we did regularly when we were growing up. Keswick is a twice yearly event in Perth which grew from the conventions in the actual town of Keswick in the UK. From their website:

The purpose of Perth Keswick Convention is to help Christians grow through biblically sound, gospel-centered teaching and true fellowship. Keswick also owns and operates Camp Wattle Grove. This campsite and conference centre is used by many groups in Western Australia. Our two, on-site families maintain the site and take the opportunity to share the Gospel of Christ with those who use it.’

I can remember attending the kids program at Keswick when I was Miss K’s age so that means I’ve had an association with them for around 30 years now. We have quite the history with the place, Mum used to run camps there including a huge vacation Bible school twice a year, 40 hour famine camps and more. We have known many of the families that have lived on site over the years and at one point I even went to school on the property. One of the closest associations my family has with the site is that Challenge Newspaper leases a corner of the property. My Dad was a founding member of Challenge. So, the Keswick site itself is very important to me and I’m so glad that my girls are able to enjoy it too.

The speaker this time was Charles Price, this is where some of the reminiscing comes in. I first heard Charles speak when I was 15 years old when he spoke for the first time at Keswick. He has returned I think four other times and this was my third time hearing his messages. He’s a brilliant, funny and deep speaker, I still remember some of the illustrations he used from when I first heard him. He’s an Englishman who now lives in Toronto, Canada where he Pastors a church. My parents are here in Perth on deputation right now so they were interviewed on stage on the Saturday afternoon so they could share about what they do in their ministry in Cairns with NTM.

The Sunday afternoon free time is always fun. There was free face painting for the girls, free horse rides and there’s a kiosk that sells lollies, icecreams and hot food for hardly anything. There is also a playground and a swimming pool, all free to use. This was where the other ‘first’ was for us, Miss L had her first ever horse ride.





We paid to camp in but it was very cheap, around $12 a night for a powered site and then for some meals in the dining room. The meetings are all free to attend (and are usually packed with hundreds of people). As you can see, it was all a bit much for little L, who fell asleep on the Sunday night in the dining room before she ate her dinner:



Dining room

Miss K got to go to a great kids program which was on for free during each meeting. She had such a great time as they sung songs, played games, had a story and did activities. At the last meeting she went up on stage with the rest of the kids and sung a song. She’s so brave, such a social butterfly!

I can’t wait for the next convention which is in Spring. If you live in Perth then be sure to come along, you never know how much you might enjoy it! Here are the details for the next one:

October 14-16 with keynote speaker Jack Hughes
Where: 59 Kelvin Road, Wattle Grove
Facebook: here
Website: here

They are also having their first ever Women’s Convention in October following the Spring Convention. Info is here.

Thankful For Dishes

This is the title of the new book by my friend Narelle Nettelbeck. She has written her second devotional book and you can purchase it either through her directly or via Koorong. I was very pleased to be able to paint the cover for her book, what a privilege to have my name attached to hers! This is the first time my artwork has been used for a book cover.

I did the painting last Sept/Oct and the book was added to the shelves of Koorong only a week or so ago. She will be having a book launch soon.


This is the original acrylic painting

Narelle’s first book is available through her blog (there is a link on my sidebar). Narelle writes honestly and with compassion for Mums who are facing issues that we all often struggle with every day in the Christian life. She describes her book as ‘a collection of 100 daily and personal devotions designed for Mums everywhere’.

Her devotionals are divided into the following sections:

Godly Living
Life In Christ
Special Occasions and Holidays
Living Life With Children
Bible Characters
Relationships
Marriage
Encouragements for Mum

I would highly recommend this devotional as a gift for a new Mum, an older Mum or what about for Mother’s Day this year?

New Artwork

I know I’m not blogging much. I’ve not been doing Friday Focus or even Music Monday. Thats ok for now, I’ve had too much on my mind to work though and none of it is the sort of thing I would like to put on a public blog. I can say that I’m getting there though and that I’m learning a lot of life lessons about things such as stress, anxiety, depression and how the brain works. As time goes on I have both large open spaces in my day where I don’t know what to do and times where my brain won’t stop. Much of this is related to the fact that we still don’t know what we will be doing this year. Its been three months since my hubby resigned and we are both slowly (imagine extreme slow-mo) climbing out of the effects of that.

One area that has been severely sapped is my creative energy. I always find that when I am on edge, tense, stressed or distracted I just can’t be creative. I have been advised to put the energy that is produced from that state of mind into artwork but either it doesn’t work for me or I’m not at that stage yet. However, I am trying to find other ways to keep the ball rolling. I have been photographing as much of my current ‘stock’ of hand made things (polymer clay) as possible and listing them. I did this at a good pace when we first returned from Cairns but then I got hardly a sale and have been discouraged. I do however keep on advertising on twitter and facebook.

I haven’t been sketching as such but I do have several moleskines full of artwork that I have always planned on turning into prints and I’ve made steps towards that. I figure that this way I don’t have to be creative as such but I can talk to the printer (an old family friend) and get some prices. the pic below shows some of the samples he has done for me to play with. When I am happy that the paper will take the paint I’m planning to apply then he will print me up some more and I can start listing them for sale. The day that happens will be an important day for me. Ever since I finished art school back in 2004 I’ve always planned on selling my art somehow. I know the clay and the other things I have in KeLu are art but selling prints is my goal.

So, I’m not sure how often I’ll be blogging right now. I’m doing a lot of listening to God through reading his Word, Christian music and podcasts and he is teaching me new things each week. I’m seriously considering starting up the photo a day again as from March 1, just to give me a reason to blog without worrying if its worth reading. Here’s the artwork before I paint back into it (planning on selling black and white line drawing versions too):

Friday Focus – Friday Feb 11

Its time for Friday Focus and I haven’t been sure what to write all day. This week has been unsettling. I’ve felt impatient (for direction), irritated and like I just can sit still or settle on anything. We may find out early next week about another position for my hubby so that could be partly to blame.

During my morning walks I usually listen to music but today I decided to try a podcast from ‘Our Daily Bread’. It hit the mark. It was EXACTLY right for me and so I thought I would share that for today’s Friday Focus. It goes for only 4 minutes so maybe you could listen to it yourself. Its called Defragment and its worth listening to if you are feeling a little like I have been lately. Here’s the link:

Defragment.

The verse it refers to is Psalm 55:1-8 and as depressing as this Psalm seems to start with, it does give a solution at the end. Here it is in full:

Psalm 55:1-8
1 Listen to my prayer, O God,
do not ignore my plea;
2 hear me and answer me.
My thoughts trouble me and I am distraught
3 at the voice of the enemy,
at the stares of the wicked;
for they bring down suffering upon me
and revile me in their anger.
4 My heart is in anguish within me;
the terrors of death assail me.
5 Fear and trembling have beset me;
horror has overwhelmed me.
6 I said, “Oh, that I had the wings of a dove!
I would fly away and be at rest—
7 I would flee far away
and stay in the desert;
8 I would hurry to my place of shelter,
far from the tempest and storm.”

I hope you feel encouraged too!

PS. Mr Linky is now a subscription service which I’m not quite willing to pay for at the moment. If you do a Friday Focus post could you please link back to here and leave a note in the comments.

Music Monday – Feb 7

I’ve still been going for my morning walks around the suburb with my headphones blaring. I still find that at least one song stands out each morning and sets my mood for the day. It makes it hard to choose a song that stands out the most but I’ve chosen one.

I’m a big fan of Steven Curtis Chapman, have been for a long time now. I find that he is so gifted with turning deep theological truths into songs so that his music has deep meaning. Even the funnier songs have a gospel truth attached. This song stood out to me this week, especially considering that limbo can often feel as if God is hiding somewhere. He’s not, he’s still the same as he always is and as the song says, still listening.

The verse this song makes reference to is Psalm 17:6-7 which reads:

‘I call on You, God,
because You will answer me;
listen closely to me; hear what I say.

Display the wonders of Your faithful love,
Savior of all who seek refuge
from those who rebel against Your right hand.’

I think we forget that we can speak to God that way, we can be honest and bold and he will listen. He’s not a scary boogie man who will get all offended because we get upset or because we all of a sudden decide he’s ignoring us. He can take it.

As he says in this song, we can be torn away from a child-like faith, the total ‘throw yourself at Jesus’ feet’ attitude that we might have had at one time. I am amazed at how many times I have to re-learn the same lesson (which means I didn’t really learn it in the first place, right?). I can confidently say that God has not failed me once. Not one time. Every time we have committed what we are doing to him and asked for direction he has given it. Why would I think that he wouldn’t do that this time? He’s God and he can take all the time he wants to show us the way we are to go. So, my next lesson seems to be heading towards patience. This is a good thing because it seems that my jar of patience is empty. Time to refill.

Enjoy the song (lyrics below):

Still Listening
Steven Curtis Chapman
[Psalm 17:6-7]

God our Father, God our Father
Once again, once again
We bow our heads and thank you
Bow our heads and thank you
Amen, amen

I would lay me down to sleep
And pray the Lord my soul to keep
And though I never saw Him there
I believe He heard each prayer
For God was great, And God was good
And I knew if I spoke the words
He would be listening

The years can take us far away
From the simple child like faith
But I am longing to return
To the place where I first learned
That God is great, and God is good
So, I will speak the words

[Chorus:]
God, our Father, once again
I bow my head to pray
You are my Father and my friend, and You hear every word I say
A prayer for forgiveness, A desperate cry for help
Or praise flowing from a thankful heart
Like each time before, I come knowing You’re still listening

I will never understand
How the words of mortal man
Can reach the ears of One so pure
And touch His heart, but they do I’m sure
For God is great, and God is good
And He is love

[Chorus:]
God, our Father, once again
I bow my head to pray
You are my Father and my friend, and You hear every word I say
A prayer for forgiveness, a desperate cry for help
Or praise flowing from a thankful heart
Like each time before, I come knowing You’re still listening
You’re still listening

Now I lay me down to sleep
And pray the Lord my soul to keep
Though I may not see You there
I believe You’ll hear each prayer

(The return of) Friday Focus

Today, for the first time since mid November I’ve felt like I can re-start with Friday Focus. These last few months have been interesting, talk about a roller-coaster.

Down: we finish at the church.
Up: we go to Cairns
Down: we get rejected for a job
Up: we are still in Cairns.
Down: we have to go home.
Up: we get to see Michael’s parents again.
Down: Where do we go to church?
Up: We found another position to apply for.
Down: we get rejected for this position.
Up: We bounce back slightly faster (ok, a lot faster) than last time.
Down: The biggest cyclone Australia has ever seen is heading directly for my family.
Up: The cyclone changes direct slightly and my family is safe (but many are badly effected).

Its really rough being in limbo. As I mentioned about a week ago I’ve learnt a lot over these months about what stress can do to your body but also to your mind. I KNOW I’m getting a bit better because I haven’t looked up a disease or symptom on the internet for a few weeks now.

As a Christian I think we sometimes consider ourselves in a bubble away from stress, hardship and discouragement but deep down we know the truth, these things touch our lives as much as the next person. The difference is where we put our focus when things go up and down. When the waves are high and tossing us about do we look for the horizon line that is Jesus? He has to become our constant. I can’t say that I do that all the time, I take my focus off of him regularly and each time I sink, just like Peter did:

Immediately Jesus spoke to them. “Have courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.”
“Lord, if it’s You,” Peter answered Him, “command me to come to You on the water.”
“Come!” He said.
And climbing out of the boat, Peter started walking on the water and came toward Jesus.
But when he saw the strength of the wind, he was afraid. And beginning to sink he cried out, “Lord, save me!”

Matthew 14:27-29

There is another verse that I memorised a while ago now and it seems to bob to the surface every now and then. This is it:

‘When times are good, be happy;
but when times are bad, consider:
God has made the one
as well as the other.
Therefore, a man cannot discover
anything about his future.’

Ecclesiasties 7:14

So, as the roller-coaster continues to go up and down I hope I can begin to relax, go with flow and enjoy the ride.