Amanda’s Musings

So, our visit to my grandparents went ok. There was a moment or two where Nanna was quite rude to each of us (she’s pretty brash) but they didn’t mention the baby thing to my brother so that’s good. I managed to avoid all ‘what are you doing with your life?’ questions (they never approve) and they even took us to a restaraunt and paid for it (which is pretty rare). Didn’t come away with a ‘that was great’ feeling though, never do.

Hmmmm. Today we’re going up to see my grandparents. I haven’t seen them since April. My nanna, as ‘loving’ as she thinks she is being holds some similar traits to the grandmother in ‘Malcolm in the Middle’. Fairly hardened and bitter. Not the fluffy, lolly giving, present giving (unless it’s a crochered hand towel or flannel) Nanna with the rosy cheeks. I feel very sad about them. Grandad is very old and both of them have Gopher’s now (those little red zoomie bike things). They aren’t Christians and always ask the same questions ‘do you have a job, is it permanent?’ ‘when are you going to settle down and get a real job?’. etc etc…. My brother and his wife are going to get a lot of stick today because they are planning on taking a new baby to PNG next year. I’ve moved up the totem pole!!

Today I watched a cat sit on my front lawn and play with a mouse. I’ve never had a cat so this is something new for me. The cat had the mouse in its mouth and then it would throw it in the air. The poor mouse would start to run away and the cat would let it get so far and then pounce on it. The process would start all over again.

Sometimes I feel like the mouse.

So. Because of our government system i can’t get certain benefits. This means I have to get another part time job. That means I can only earn a certain amount equivalent to a low wage one day a week job. That means that only the Lord can provide sucha job because they are hard to come by at my age. Maybe I could sell my art. Big point of prayer.

Ok, I finally worked it out and hopefully next time the photos will work first time. Anyway, they’re up now which is a relief.

I am learning to keep my mouth shut when I feel like giving an opinion, unless asked. I’ve found a Proverb which actually encourages this way of acting:

A fool finds no pleasure in understanding

but delights in airing his own opinions.

Proverbs 18:2

It seems that it’s foolish to air your own opinions instead of listening to others and trying to be understanding. This is something I’ll be trying even harder to do!

I’ve just worked out how to post images on here so here’s my sausage dog;

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